FML....

semester starts again....timetable's a mess...groupmates got saparated to different classes...i dunno whether to laugh or cry....but perhaps the most obvious change is that..............sighs..not gonna say it...at this moment, i feel like a fool....starting to sleep late at night and get up early in the morning....I fear i will lose all my feelings...perhaps...numbing your own feelings isnt the best way to solve your problems...im beginning to think that this silence in me isnt so bad after all.....until i look at my pathetic self in the mirror....and feel sad...somehow , i think the older i get...less happiness exists in me....many people said that i seldom smile...seldom go to friend's gatherings...whatever events....what has become of me? why do i let this feeling torture me again and again? i said i'll forget but, why do i always think of it? I cant feel happy...i cant be happy....maybe its best i bury myself inside my studies...i begin to feel that this sadness is etching deeper and deeper.....i'll pick myself up and move on....like a souless man walking down the streets...no aim in life, no confidence, no happiness, no goals.......just wandering around aimlessly...fuck you all who says that im a fool, stupid.....remember this, you arent in my shoes...so just shut the fuck up....