Disappointment...

I dont know how to express my feelings now. heartbroken, sad, disappointed. I finally asked you today. A 'no' was the answer given to me...I know its not your fault. maybe i was the one with too much feelings. now my heart really really hurts....its like a knife piercing through it...I couldn't stop the pain...damn wanted to cry but, i couldnt...no tears came out...I was unable to do anything...i dont know how long this pain is goin to last...i'll try to stand up again...i tried very hard not to think abt it, i cant...